What Depression Looks Like - For Me
1989 I fall in love for the first time in 8th grade. I fall all the way in. We hook up but never date seriously. I am poor and not cool, I think I embarrass him. I am swallowed whole by all oft he feelings in this relationship. Eventually he turns on me, him and his friends tease me, shame me in front of friends, embarrass me. At school one day, I take a bottle of Tylenol, washing it down in the drinking fountain. I go to the school counselor and tell her. I wind up in the ER with my mother, I get counseling from an awful counselor. I don't remember my school counselor ever reaching out again. I am not medicated at that point. I have some other cries for help at that age, but eventually move in with my father and away from these negative influences. I get a job, make friends, go to college and do well for some years. 1997 Nearing the end of graduate school, I experience my first episode of major depression. I have always been chubby, but during school I t